being leisure since May this year after i finished my doctor entrance interview, it is like that i am accustomed to the free life. I ever dislike being as housewife whose duty is just to take care of her family and then can spend her spare time on anything she likes, but now i almost fall into that condition. I dont want to live my life busy with my job even though i ever dream to do sth on it. Too long not to consider by myself. It seems that i lose the capacity to think independently. At present i bury my head into the books ,which make my exhausted and want to escape. To my surprise, why my classmates can be always in good condition which i cannt. Maybe ones dream can explain that clearly. Though i have my dream, i dont want to pay for it. What shall i do? can u tell me?